Ugg

Why did I think having people over here for the evening was a good idea? Now were are attempting to clean this entire pigsty, and it is a pain in the ass. Sigh. Such is the penalty for wanting to be a good hostess. I wish I was cool with them coming over to my mess, but I'm just not. I blame my mother for that.

On a plus note though, my temps have taken a lovely upward trend. About freaking time.

Where did my husband go?

It's been almost 5 hours since he went to the car show. It's almsot 11 PM and he is out on his bike. And he left his phone at home. WTF assmonkey?

Am I finally there?

At long last? Maybe did I finally O on what should have been 10 dpo- I should have been trying to convince myself that testing so soon was fucktarded. But I did get to test today at least (thank you saveontests.com- I would have spent a bundle having to test for an extra 10 days this month!)- a have never been so happy to fail a test in my life. After yesterday's insane positive (the test line showed up before the control and was darker. I'm pretty sure that means we are ready for launch!) and the ovulation pains from hell, if I don't get a spike tomorrow, I am likely going to hurt someone.

Maybe my neighbor who thinks the sidewalk is his personal motorcycle driveway. Yep, he's first.

End of the craziness?

Could it be? Finally? I will be waiting with bated breath when I awake in the morn!


Quick update: The last test I was faking a positive because I wanted it to be one. These two really were positive! Yay- I think my ovaries have finally come off of their short vacation!

Maybe?

Why do I not feel like I have truly ovulated this cycle yet? Everything has been so screwed up that I don't believe what my chart it telling me. I find FF to be a big fat liar. We shall see.

Progress?

The lines are getting progressively darker again. Thanks to the BOTB girls that pointed out my delay and chart stupidity is most likely due to stress- which I have had plenty of. Hopefully the lines will continue to progress and we can get this show on the road.

On a completely unrelated note, J is passed out at the moment. Apparently a bunch of beer and numerous shots of varying alcohols kicked his ass! I have been having so much fun at his expense, as it is normally the other way around. Taking full advantage of mocking him while I can.

Well, fuck me running!

Did someone out there steal my ovulation? Did I freaking lose it somewhere? I realize I am not all that late at this point, but it is seriously getting old! Friday I had about a halfway dark line on my OPK- which was a progressive build up from the prior few days. Then suddenly, nothing. Not even the faintest hint of a line. I have clearly not ovulated yet, so who knows what the hell is going on.

It would be my luck though- the past few months everything has been pretty darn predictable. I figured with getting my cycle down and knowing what should be going on when before John got home would be great and might help our chances. And what happens the first month he's home- my cycle starts going to shit. Cute. Very cute. I am praying this is a one time deal and that I won't have to deal with this a bunch of times. Right now I think I would deal with a negative pregnancy test or getting my period a lot better than I am waiting for my stupid egg.

Oh the stress of actually being TTC. This is lovely- I am pretty sure I am going to lose my mind (or what little is left of it) extremely quickly!