New Doctor = Non Asshat

So douchebag Dr's office didn't fax my medical records in time. Why am I not surprised? I wasn't sure how he was going to respond to this, but he was ok with it. My appt was slightly delayed as he had a patient in labor and there were some issues that he needed to run across the street to the hospital for. I suppose that's a good reason to leave me waiting. At least his nurse had to decency to forewarn me and give me the option of waiting, coming back in an hour, or rescheduling.

Anyway, 30-45 minutes after he got into my room, I left with a much, much better feeling. It probably would have gone a little smoother if he had my actual records, but we ad libbed fairly well. He was leaning toward possible PCOS, but since my prolactin levels are normal and I am ovulating, (granted he had to take my word for it, but he will get my charts when douchebag doctor's office forwards them, so if he sees something he can call), we are going to let the rest of our year run it's course before we proceed any further with that. Since we are actively TTC, the last thing we wanted to do was put me on BCP. He also mentioned that due to my history, a HSG wouldn't be completely unwarranted, but is leaving that decision up to me if I wish to pursue it prior to one year TTC.

Right now I have a standing order for progesterone levels 7 dpo. DH is doing his SA tomorrow. And I feel much better about where we sit as I have a doctor who is actually willing to talk to his patients.

Douchebag doctor- YOU'RE FIRED!

The upside of shitting yourself to death

I am down 3 lbs from yesterday. Even after eating today. Go me. That's down 7 lbs from where I was when crackhead told me I needed to lose 20 lbs. In 2 and a half weeks. Wheeeee!

My short term goal is 209 (I will use my Wii Fit goal as it is easier to see). I am currently at 224, so 25 lbs to go!

Appt Tomorrow & Chart Vent

With new doctor. Hopefully he won't be as stupid as the last one. Now I have to go get my records transferred over for him. Too bad today is one of the days mine is actually in her office- I was hoping to keep the chances of seeing her again to a minimum because I still want to smash her face in.

As for my chart- WTF is going on this month? I had to chuck out another temp due to drinking and crappy sleep (TCOYF software threw it out as well, which helped in that decision). I have been doing my damnedest to do a good job charting this month, so why does my body have to rebel against my efforts to understand it? Grrr.

About time

My test results are back- finally. Prolactin levels normal. Testosterone levels elevated. From what I have seen (thank you Dr Google) above 50 is considered elevated. Mine were 69. Joy. And of course the standard suggesting for this- back on birth control. Fuck off and die. You can't pay me enough money to go back on that crap. Going on was hell for 6 months, getting off was hell for 6 months. And she wants me to go on it for a month or two? Dear lord, my head would probably explode.

The other suggested treatment- sugar avoidance (better known as lose some weight fatty). This will be my immediate course of action (except for the sucker I had when I got home). I have checked with my friends to see where they go and if they like their doctors. Getting a second medical opinion on my charts and if there is any other treatment course they might suggest (mine said absolutely nothing beyond BCPs) is my next move. I need to get away from her- soon. I want to hurt her. And to top it off, she's a fucking professor of nursing- awesome.

For someone with a elevated male hormone, I sure have been bawling like a little bitch lately about a lot of things.

Hmmm

I never really thought about it, but J doing a SA test is going to be a real challenge for him. No sex or masturbation for 2-4 days? Good grief, the man is going to explode. He is concerned about how he's going to do this without lube. Shit, I don't think the man has gone that long without some kind of release in years. I don't think it will be a huge issue. I pop a tit out at him and the cup will be full.

Wouldn't it be far more realistic to test him within the normal realm of our sexual activity? Oh wait, that would make sense. Nevermind.

::pulls hair and screams::

Are you kidding me? I don't ovulate? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

I am now convinced my doctor is on crack. You would have to be to call my cycles non-ovulatory. If she wanted to throw down the PCOS card on the table, that's fine. I won't argue with that one. But saying all of my cycles since May are anovulatory? Moronic. Idiotic. Fucking stupid. (For anyone randomly stumbling across my blog, my charts: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1bcc71)

And then there's the issue of the testing. Seriously, she had to make a point to write down that it needed to be an 8 AM test(which generally means fasting, which she didn't write on the order either, but the tech said it was standard with that test, so I figured I probably better). Wouldn't it cross her damn mind to maybe tell me that? Idiot. I am actually hoping tomorrow's test comes up PCOS and she will refer me elsewhere. If not, I am going to start shopping for a new doctor. I don't need to put up with this shit.

After she assumed I would come back as diabetic, that should have been a sign.

The results are in

While I don't have exact numbers, apparently all is well with my bloodwork- no diabetes (ha- I knew that one) and no thyroid issues.

On to the next phase- though I don't know what that is yet. Wednesday we will make our gameplan. Yippee.

Down 4 lbs already- 16 more to go! Yay!

OB Visit

Well, that went craptastically. In the nicest way she could, I pretty much got told that I needed to lose weight. Now. Wonderful. It turns out that I gained 23 lbs. the past year (and like 25 the prior year). So we are going to get on this before I get any heavier than 232. Tomorrow morning I can go in for a 2 hr glucose test and for thyroid crap. Lovely way to spend the morning.

During her little lecture she started in about cholesterol levels and glucose levels...yadda yadda yadda. I just had that done about a month ago. My cholesterol levels were something to be envied and my glucose only failed because the people running it told me I wasn't eligible to do it for free (it was through work and I don't have their insurance), so I went a slammed two cups of coffee with sugar and cream in them. Then they told me I could do it- I was over by 9 points after that.

Then she started going into that when you gain weight you won't ovulate. Hmm, I am fairly certain my charts disagree. Thanks for playing though. I probably should have taken them in with me, but it didn't cross my mind. I have a survey to fill out, and I will send my charts in with that.

I am not sure how I want these test results to come out tomorrow. I am fairly certain the glucose test won't be an issue after how things went last month. I am curious about the thyroid results though.

Lonely

I'm so lonely. How the fuck did I do this for a whole year?

I know the first couple weeks are the worst- it's that adjustment phase. It will pass. It will pass. My biggest issue is my need for sleep. I have gotten about 10 hours the last 3 nights- 5 of that being last night. Not good.

Timing is everything

Can someone think of a good way to stress myself out this month? Please? J is going to be out of town from CD 7-16. My luck will be this will be the one cycle that my body decides to go back to Oing on CD13-14. If there was any way I could go visit him for the weekend he is gone to cover our bases, I would. But it's just not in the cards.

Even worse will be the month of February. J will be gone the whole month. Not good for TTC. Stupid military and making him take classes. They are screwing with my plans. From what I have understood from DH, we are going to have limited time anyway this year with the rumors that are flying around. Sucktacular.