For the first time, I actually allowed myself to get a little excited. How can you argue with my chart? Clearly it must be the HPTs.
WRONG.
Fuck this shit. I want a baby. Badly. But I don't need this psychological mindfuck. I wish there was something logical to be found in my chart at the moment, but there's not. There's just not. Did I not ovulate? If not, why did I have such a great shift? Did I ovulate later? If so, that is complete crap and we are completely hosed.
It took everything I had not to break down at work. Everything. I am mentally exhausted right now. As much as I was a pessimist before, this short stint of optimism has shoved me even further to the side of pessimism than I even have been. I want a child, I want to have a family with my husband, but this is fucking ridiculous. Right now, I just want a fucking answer. I don't even give a shit anymore which one it is.
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I'm so sorry :( My chart was a total asshole this cycle too.
You want me to throat punch your chart? I can do that!
I am so, so, so sorry. I am so dumbfounded by your chart and the result that you got. I'm still hoping you've just got a late implanter.
*HUGS*
:( I'm sorry.
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